DIABETES SHOCK
I sit here with this pain in my chest
Thinking it will be like the last
More blood
More X-rays
More test
The pressure
The burden
The stress
Then comes in the doc
Here comes the news I dread
Your heart is fine she said
But then comes the shock
She said, your sugar level is high you see
So you have diabetes
Hearing that, my heart began to pound
As my world suddenly crashed to the ground
I starred up at the ceiling and said to myself
God, why me and not someone else?
Nothing did I hear
No image
No visions
Nothing did appear
Life will go on, this I know is true
But how can it for me, with this news
My dreams of the future
My life style of the past
All changed so fast
I lie here, an empty shell of a man
Dark, deep, hollow inside
Nothing left now, nothing to hide
Thoughts of ending it all start to appear
I start to get choked and tear
With thought of my family so dear
Thoughts of missing them without me
All caused by some damn, disease
I fight and struggle to fill this hollow shell
It soon becomes a fight between heaven and hell
My head begins to swirl and ache
The room starts to spin and shake
The battle is on
And which will win
Only God knows in the end
So as I lie here, recovering from the night that has passed
I realize I must move on and leave the past
For I must create a new future for me
Because I want to be around for my Abby
For all this happened on the 1st day of her 3rd year
A day, I’ll remember till the very end
Wednesday, December 20th, of the year two thousand -mm
Michael Lee Manley
Copyright ©2001 Michael Lee Manley
